Black Saturday wasn't as gloomy as it should be.Yeah i know...i didn't observe proper catholic practices. I missed church. OMG! Isa na akong irehes...Well, i was already late for church...di ko rin maabutan sila mama sa bahay...so i guess i'm stuck with my girl friends...talking about our gloomy non-or-rather-half-exsisting lovelife in the most hilarious way possible.
We spent 2 hour talking and most of the time taking funny pictures (for friendster's sake of course!). We looked drunk on the pictures...hahaha!!! coffee drunk you call it...but in the most euphoric way...
Friends really keeps me insanely sane...clashing huh? although we talk about all the bad things, corny stuff and events that shouldn't be even needed talking...just little things...i find comfort in them. I guess its like therapy for me...a stress busting once in a while therapy..Hey! its far better than going to a shrink's clinic...i don't consider myself mad...but not even normal...hahahah!!!
- Location:mah' turf
- Music:dumadaang mga jip
Whew! it was tiring yet sobrang enjoy. I played badminton for a few times but t this time is one of the best...hehehe...aside from observing myself improve on the game...i get to sweat A LOT! yahoooo!!! i hope i'll loose all the excess weight with this...hahahahah!!!
Can't wait for the next game. ayus! =)
- Location:at home
- Mood:
cheerful - Music:bubbly
I've been telling myself not to hold on to something that i know would eventually ruin me.
But why does his name keep on appearing everywhere i look?
posters, print ads, bill board, water brand, building name and car model...argh!!!
ok ok ok...so his name is kinda common?
why do i have a feeling that everytime i try to forget all that we had he pops out of nowhere?
is this fate?
a destined phenomena?
or just a sheer consolation for a person left behind?
i don't even know how i feel...
i don't know if it's even real
or just plainly an inappropriate theory of consolidated events?
do i even have to move on when i don't really know where i stand.
was i that numb not to feel it before?
- Location:at home
- Mood:
confused - Music:just like a tatoo - jordin sparks
i have always thought that things were really ok between my friends...that it was just work thing and nothing personal.
Now, i'm here confused but i don't wanna go against either side coz that would be too unfair for everybody...as much as possible i don't wanna get involved in any work related issues with any of my friends. sometimes people take things too personally that it ends up diggin' everybody's bad reps. i'm not saying i'm in any way perfect but cool friends keep me sane. it bothers me so much that everything could go sour and that it can actually affect both my friendship with both parties.
i have heard both sides and i think each has their points. they just don't meet halfway...i just don't know why...
Friendship comes with sincerity and honesty but i realized that in the real world one may show dishonest concern for someone just to keep things cool on the surface.
i can't help but get angry with all the buzzing bees delivering false facts about what was really said and done. they caused a lot of paranoia among friends, turning them into secret foes.
i don't know where i am now...but this feeling has struck me again just like what happened months ago...
it makes me question if people from work are really treating me well or just being nice but back stabbing bitches...
i hate this...
- Location:cafe
- Mood: confused
A lot has happened the past months that i haven't been able to update my online stuffs (friendster, myspace, ymail, msn, ym, yg..etc...) so much that i have the boredome tendencies. there are times that i just wanna give up with a snap of my fingers. But certainly i couldn't coz i have to face the real world of being an adult. having more freedom means bigger responsibilities that never-not-even-once-ever get loose grip of because that would only mean one thing...being a LOSER!!!
So much for that self-improvement thingy...well, these events kept me busy the past months after my modem broke down...
AUGUST 7
*first day of SPC golden jubilee reunion.
*got the chance to go coz my aunt is also an alumni..
*saw this really cute guy...who turned out to be the son of my aunt's college instructor...lol
*we get to give cute guy and his family a ride to the restaurant after the event...no move made...
*we had this welcome dinner....cute guy is there!...in barong! my cool aunt made a move for me...haahahaa!!!
Cool Aunt: You look handsome tonight!
Cute guy: *smiles* thank you..
Me: (just beside my aunt)..*sighs*...
*we caught each other's eye a few times....we were a few tables away...
*i had to leave early coz i have night shift duty...aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!
AUGUST 9
*A night of golden memories concert!
*with jose mari chan and bituin escalante...
*i've been wanting to watch this!
*bad news: cute guy flew back to US...
AUGUST 12
*Formal dinner/gala night at Waterfront Insular Hotel
*I didn’t get to see any of my batchmates, but my sis was there too.
*I was busy taking pics
AUGUST 16-18
*Basic Life Support training
*sponsored by our hospital and Davao 911
*911 swept my heart away! I wanna work at 911…
*we had this situational analysis on the last day…
*I became a “victim” after my group was done being “rescuers”
*bad news: my family won’t let me work there..hmpf!
AUGUST 19
*Hale at NCCC!!!!
*hmpf!!! Met up with DISH but wasn’t able to watch them play…night shift uli!
*andun din calla lily, protein shake and 6cm!!!
*ggggrrrrrrrr!!! Missed half of my life!!!
*tito nonoy (champ’s dad) had a set too!!! Caught him singing live!
*may pinagmanahan talaga si champ..hehehehe
AUGUST 30 – SEPTEMBER 1
*IV therapy training at DMC…
*wohhhhoooo!!!!
*I was with jean, divine, amy and kuya jules..
*lamig sa mahogany room!!! Nyemas! Nakaka-antok!!
*piktyur-pikturan galore kami..hhehehehe
*kuya jules inserted the iv canulla right on his second attempt..ooouuuuuccchhhh!!!
*I was his patient!!
*after, I got back at him…I got it right on the third try..hahaha..peace kuya!
*after our exams on the third day…we went to this café and had halo-halo espesyal!! Yummy!!!
*august 31: missed my moms bday…had to go on duty after my training…just gave her a cake as my gift..surprise na nabuko, coz she bumped with my sister sa mall who bought the cake.
SEPTEMBER 11
*Hale at brokenshire!!!
*wwoooohhhhhoooooo!!!
*we picked them up at the airport…tapos kuya vj went to ride with us papuntang brok for courtesy call and after sa hotel..kulitan galore in peachy’s car…heheheh!
*got a scratched by one of the fans dun sa school!!! Ansakeeeettt!!!Hmpf!!!
*sama rin kami sa soundcheck…wala kasing magawa after lunch…
*tapos kuya angel invited us to cool off sa hotel before the gig..kaya ayun, nakihilamos, nakitulog at nakibihis sandali sa room nila.
*nag-camwhore pa kami ni xenia sa elevator..hahahaha!!! ala lang…
*aliw sila sa yellow DISH HALE army shirts namin!...kinuha ni kuya angel ang shirt ni paul…hahahah!
*bad news: all my pics got deleted from my cam!!ggrrr!!!
*good news: got it all covered on video! Ayus!
SEPTEMBER 21
*got pricked by a used needle!
*the catch: my patient may be positive for hepatitis! Yikess!!!!
SEPTEMBER 22
*had to be absent from work
*got myself checked by the doc
*doc told me nothing to worry coz there was no blood contact…just on the iv tubings
*had my hepa vaccine fast tracked…
*got broked coz I had to pay for the vaccine and test the patient’s blood ng di oras.
*turned out the patient is non reactive!!! Ayus!! Thank God!
SEPTEMBER 25
*watched colt 45 rakista
*bamboo performed!!!
*VIPulit!
*thanks to ate gemma…her hubby works for asia brewery….ayus!!!
*ang cute ni Nathan!!! Feeling close kami kunyari….hahahaha!!!
*pics from my cam with Nathan and Ira..still to follow..
OCTOBER 13
*Friday the 13th
*went to DMC to submit my IV therapy form..
*a tiring day…
*didn’t get any money from my atm…haba ng pila!!! Gowshh!!! I’m out of cash..
*fifty bucks is all I got now…
OCTOBER 14
*looks like freaky Friday just beaten me up
*how much more malas can I get?
*my atm got blocked by some f****’n machine! GRRRRRR!!!
*buti na lan to the rescue si best cousin phil. Pumunta pa xa all the way to sm to lend me some money..
*but malas has it’s kambal na swerte…raindrops fallin’ on my head..hahahah!!! he’s cute!!! Lol…
*I accidentally bumped in with franzz, roby, dhale, mellisse and Yvette! And guess what? We joined the hershey’s happiness photo contest! Sana manalo kami..woohhoooo!!!
*it’s my hs bff’s birthday pala! Wapiburfdei ina! Amishusssooomusch!
- Location:cafe that sucks
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:when you were young by the killers
A had this dream last night that I wrote a journal on my LJ (swoosh! I miss my online journal so much)…I wrote everything that I actually feel these past weeks. It was me being lonely without even letting a soul know about it. i dunno…it seems like all the "dementors" sucked up all the happiness I have that no chocolate could ever cure. Nada nada nada…I just wish I can emancipate. But different magnitudes of negative forces have been after me…I gush of negativity rushes through me, that all I see is unhealthy…more of my life’s JUNK FOOD.
There’s my WORK which sometimes slaving me to death! If I only knew it’s gonna be this hard, I wouldn’t have go on nagging my mom to let me work. Whew! It’s not just physically draining but also emotionally battering me. I have to deal with thinskinned people! And sometimes it gets into my freaking nerves!!! I have this notion to get even sometimes…lol…
I have this new motto the past few months…"I AM WHAT YOU ARE TO ME." As simple as that…I’ve done it quite a gazillion times; and fairly, I get into their nerves too…hahahahah!!! How I wish they’d known about it. I am just never candid to people I BARELY know. I dunno…I’m not the type of person who’ll punch someone right off her face. "parinig???" never works for me…it’ll start trouble but I’ll never win…both sides will be losers in any way. So I don’t make patol…I’ll just look shabby if I do. I have no grudge against nobody…especially to those who hates their life without even noticing it. GET A LIFE YOU A*****E!!!
A blaring renaissance might be near for me though…one of my wishes will be granted just before my 23rd birthday…yipeee!!! I was granted a lateral transfer to ICU…woooohhooo!!! Ubercool!!! I get to be an ICU nurse in less than a year of working. Looks like a big chunk of chocolate fell into my hands. I am quarter-heartedly (whoah!!!quarter??? Hahaha!!!) into it coz I’ll be missing my loko-loko and loka-loka co-nurses at NS2A. They might be a bit waspish sometimes but I’ve already accepted them as they are…I hope they are to me too!!! Hahahaha!!!Oooppssss...
- Location:cafe that sucks
- Mood:
crappy - Music:mr. brightside
grrrr!!!
kaloka ang walang net sa bahay..
i'm stuck here in the cafe...surrounded by lurkers...
shit xado katabi ko..peeping on my unit...sarap sapakin!!!
amp!!!
dami ako kwento..
but some other time na lang..
17 more fuckin' days...
i hate my life right now...
i hate someone...
i think i'm beginning to like someone...
i friends with someone now...
i'm kinda broke...grrrr!!!!
bills bills bills...
need to make tipid...
i living for myself right now...
no more allowance...
haaaaaayyyyyy.....
- Location:bulls**t cafe
- Mood:
cranky - Music:geeky lovesong
thanks to my senior staff airish! =)
everything went well until late last night.
a text message alert awakened me from my sleep.
it's from krystal, my co-staff nurse.
she told me that our head nurse assigned me to be at the hospital's free clinic drive on saturday...
and this is the catch...i'm on an 3-11 shift peviously!!! which gives me just a couple hours of rest!!!
heeeelllllllloooo!!!!
i'm not a ROBOT!
but i can't decline since i'm just new on the job....
and still under probation for six months...
grrrrrrr!!!! hmpf!!!!
my only consolation is...i have a day off on monday....
and next weekend i'll be on double time again..aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!
this is what sucks the most...
no salary yet....
aaaawwwww!!!!
the management informed us that the newly hired would have to wait for a while...
aaaawwwwwww......
i have to ask for allowance again...
for another 15 days.......
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood: disappointed
- Music:LSS...unfaithful
last july 24.
ala lang...naaliw lang me coz i got in on an exclusive concert...VIP!!!
heheheehe.....tenchu talaga kay tito nonoy for helping us...
exclusive lang kasi yung gig for the students and employees of "the school"....sooooo....ayun....
i wasn't in anyway hoping to get in....
ok lang na ma-meet ulit namin sila pre or post gig sa hotel....
twist of fate naman talaga! hehehehe!!!
here are some pics.. (more on my multiply site)
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood:
blah - Music:warning sign by coldplay
ang gwapo ni LEE DONG WOOK!!!
ahahahahaha!!!
para akong higu school girl sa kagagahan....
kaming dalawa ni TAL2..my co-staff nurse...ahahahah!!!
sa sobrang gwapo niya...
pati pagod ko galing night shift pawi agad.. nung napanood ko siya sa wowowee..nyayk!!!
tapos kanina sa the buzz..shyeeeettteeeshyeeetshyeeettt!!!
papanoorin ko ang Arang kahit matatakutin ako..
hahaha!!!
all for this guy...
haaaaaayyyyyyyyy......
mukhang mapapabili akong my girl na dvd...hahahahahah!!!
did i mention...wallpaper ko sa celfone? hmmmm...hahahahah!!!!
- Location:mah turf
- Mood: amused
- Music:my girl
a lot has happened the past weeks...
a lot that i haven't been able to update my on-line stuffs...
hahhhhahahahahahah!!!
guess i'm not a web addict anymore...
work is keeping me busy these days.
i'm officially hired as a staff nurse in DMSFHospital.
for starters, i'm pretty good coz my evaluation is ABOVE AVERAGE.
hehehehehe...born to be a nurse!!!
it's a very tiring job actually...but very heart-warming. there are times that...i wanna burst out because of the never ending demands of my patients. but i just couldn't coz it breaks my heart to see them sick...especially the kids...the newborns. they're such fragile angels. it makes me happy to see them improving as the days go by...
but one patient just crushed my heart...gramps*...she's such a strong willed person who fights to live...yet, her family has signed the DNR form....meaning no heroic acts in any case...just letting her slip away...letting her die...it makes me wanna cry seeing her on her "death bed"...no medicines...just comfort measures...
~*~graveyard shift~*~
- Location:mah turf
- Mood:
drained - Music:blue sky by Hale
i'm on official OJT...
kinda' tiring but worth it...
we have one of the busiest ward in DMSFH...whew!
i get off from work an hour and a half late.
i learn a lot too!!!
and my batchmates and the NOD (ma'am gem) was sooooo UBERco0L!!!
i work near the the ICU unit...
and hahahahaha!!!
HOW i WiSH...i'd be assigned there next week.
niloloko nga ako ni tan na dapat dun na raw ako kasi...
bWAAhahahhahhaha!!! toinks!!!
sabi ko naman...yoko nga!!! Si ----
doesn't make sense?
hehehehhe...wag na lang...
SENSORED!
I'll be assigned at OR-DR tomorrow!
gotta review the sterile techniques...
here are some pics from our seminar..pre-OJT
~*~ yatz*tal2*tyng ~*~
Early birds (L-R): arjune, gerald, love, tal2, glady, me, amy and vas
- Location:mah turf
- Mood:
dorky - Music:sugod - mayonaise
been working on my msn messenger....
so we'll have better video conferences with our relatives abroad. seems like YM webcam services are fucked up!!!
Oh Em Gee!!! Uberfucked!!!
I've been trying to have a video confe with my uncle and cousin...but it won't broadcast...DAMN!!!
Yesterday was pretty A-OK...
my incentives allowed me to buy some stuffs...more like food stuffs..LOL
but i saw a pair of green havana flipflops......NOT havaianas... t'was nice and it just costs 60 bucks!
oh well i bought it......i wanted to buy 2 pairs but i thought of my mom going berserk coz i often buy things that i don't really need..
it's nice...and cheap....havaianas are way too expensive for flipflops...but i'd gladly have them if someone gives me a pair......heheheheh =)....i'd like a black pair...size 9...lol
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood:
giddy - Music:silent mode
we'll go the beach next week. auntie ann's gonna be in town and she pre-planned her visit with an overnight stay at Mervillas, so we had 2 beach house reserved. yeeeey!!! baluga nanaman ako after...but i don't care...beach is life!!!
i also saw some pics on the box...WTF!!! ampayat ko sa pic!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu...i felt kinda depressed lalo...kasi kanina, while i was wearing my jeans...it hardly fits on me...i need to exert some force for me to fit on it...hahaahahhaa!!!...what a bum i am...i shouldn't have given up walking.
i've given up walking months ago...i was doing it daily...that's why i was more or less fit then...even the skips...i was too lazy to do it...i'm such a big procrastinator that i end up not doing anything...i seldom fix my stuffs...i won't do it unless i'm going crazy looking for something i forgot where i placed...i thing my OC personality just reversed...
I'm gonna go to sleep now...
i'll TRY to wake up and start my walking routine again...
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood: tired
- Music:Only when I sleep - the corrs
haaaayyyy...could be PMS...but the after thing...POST MS rather than PRE MS...
PMPLMAOTNTLOLz
i ended up eating whole wheat grahams which surprisingly satisfied me...i don't usually like to eat plain grahams...it's yummy with peanut butter or in mango float or strawberry passion....aaaawwwww!!!
So i made a list of my all-time faves:
FOOD:
* french fries - i can live with french fries alone....lol
* mcdo cheese burger - uhlalaaah...lot'sa fats!
* pepperoni and cheese pizza - oooohhhhhh...did i mention stuffed crust too?
* double dutch ice cream - cools me down...
* chocolates - from the local chocnut to imported ones...it makes me happy!
* oishi ridges - cheese flavor please!
* bopis - luto ni papa ko!
* dinuguan - luto pa rin ni papa ko!
* pink gulaman - my mama makes it perfectly!!! pink? kasi it's way attractive to eat...
* baked mac - oooozzzzziiiiinnnngggg with cheese..owtie?!
* chocolate mousse cake - heavenly!!! auntie connie...yooohhhhooo?!?!
* brownies - munch...munch...don't disturb
* donuts - cute stuff too eat...esp. choco wacko...
* kamoteQ and bananaQ - mashawap lalo with sprite...pinoy na pinoy!
* shawarma - basta...shawap!
* camaron rebusado - dencia's makes the best of it
* blueberry cheese cake - hhaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy...tingin pa lang...
* carbonara - just easy to make...but yummy to eat..limas ko agad...lol
* green apples - green..mah' fave color...it has a sweet and sour tangy taste that i really like than in other apples...
DRINKS:
* iced coffee - basta iced...with lot'sa milk! my morning energizer...
* iced tea - pamatid uhaw! whew!...
* strawberry cream shake - yumyum!!! miss ko na si yotchie!!
* fresh milk - got milk?
* sprite - gulp....gulp...gulp...
* asti martini - pag new year...hehehe
* water - water...water....water.....
* lemonade - i can consume a pitcher of this!
* hawaiian punch - mildly alcholic
* san mig light -pag may gimik...di kashe ako nagpapalasheng sha lavash eh vaka deh ako maka-uweh....hik!hik!hik!..LOL
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood:
crazy - Music:ocean avenue - yellowcard
i didn't wear everything...coz it won't fit on my arms anymore.
my collection is continually growing...yipppeeee!!!
wanna add more??? buy me some!!! J/K!!!
thanks to everyone who gave me most of these bracelets...
and to me for buying and making some...LOL
- Location:mah' turf
- Mood: amused
- Music:grillz - nelly feat paul wall
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